I'm a big time believer in finding balance in my life. I don't overdo work and bring it home. I don't have personal issues that I bring into work. I don't let stress derail my fun, and I don't let my fun get in the way of my efforts. I do what I'm doing when I'm doing it, but when that time is over, I let go.
The month of February I've been out of balance.
:ast week I lost a grand total of bupkis. Truth is, I haven't lost since the first or second week of February. Checking back, I've been at 265 since Feb 10! What a total waste of a month. Kind of depressing actually. The first question I'm asking myself is, "why?" Why didn't I lose more? And why, when I was in the midst of my 265ness, did I not notice more? Push harder? What's going on here? Over the course of the month I went from 270 on Jan 31 to 265 on Feb 28. Makes me feel a little foolish.
Sometimes I remind myself to find the positive in the situation, but right now I don't want to look for that. Finding positives in a wasted month won't get me closer to my goal. Exercising, eating, blogging, talking to others, drinking my water, getting enough rest... Those are my main keys to success.
The reality is, it's the stress of the workplace that's throwing me off. The big effort should wrap up for me come Friday (though the plan is for it to bleed into the weekend too... blech!) but it's currently hurting me. I'm not getting as restful sleep - I toss and turn a bit more. I'm waking up tired. I'm also staying later than I'd care to, and that's throwing off my eating schedule. As I result, I sometimes find myself overeating to compensate as my whole body is demanding food. I've started holding back from eating my lunchtime apple until 3 to help with that, but even then I'm blowing it. I'm getting a pastry every day it seems, and not just my morning muffin. I've missed the gym more in the month of Feb then I did the entire 6 months before that.
I'm out of balance.
Even though I can't do anything out the required work effort this week, I'm going to focus myself on getting back into balance. If not physically, at least mentally. I've recognized the failure of February, and I'm determined not to allow it to repeat in March.