Still making it happen

Okay, so it's now Thursday of week one. I'm going very strong! I've completely cut out my sodas and it's been all water, all the time.

When I got home from Texas after Xmas, I stepped on the scale and saw 292.4 and if I hadn't just evacuated my bowels I would have shit my pants. So close to 300 again! Fucking misery.

Today I weighed in at 286.6, which while still extremely high is at least giving me some early positives regarding my drink and food choices, as well as a nice reward for 30 minutes at the gym both nights.

I'm getting married in the new year. The official date is October 1, which gives me 9 months to go to get down. I'd love to be 215 for the wedding. That's still a bit high for me, but it's also a totally obtainable goal. It'll be nice to honeymoon somewhere warm without worrying about my bathing suit.

My lowest weight before I sort of slid away from this was 247, so it's still lots and lots of work to get there, but I'm committed. Committed in a way that I haven't been in a long time. I feel it, and I'm excited to feel it again.

286.6

Wednesday

Well, the caffeine headache has already subsided. I'm thrilled. Last night I made it to the gym after work and put in 30 minutes on the elliptical (hello again old friend). I feel that it would be worth it to discuss the whys of dropping out of my exercise routine, though at the moment I don't think I'm prepared for the level of introspection. I'm more focused on just getting the weight loss process restarted right now, you know? But I do think that I owe it to myself to delve deeper.

288.1

Ugh, my head...

It's now 8:22 PM and I haven't had a bit of caffeine yet today. My head! Ugh. There's this headache that's just sitting right in the middle of it, pulsing slowly.

I've come in today at 1725 calories. I think that somewhere between 1600 and 1800 seems "right" for me, though getting my body used to that will be a bit tough I'm afraid.

Tomorrow I should be headed to the gym. I'm looking into a couple weight training routines. I think deadlifts, squats and bench presses will be the focus as they're the best for adding big chunks of muscle. I'm not looking to be slim, I'd like to have a bit of an athletic build.

I'm yawning quite a bit. Not sure if it's due to yesterday's travel (and the week of Xmas in TX), or the caloric reduction. Stay tuned and we'll investigate if I stay tired or if I rebound.

Time to Start it Up?

What an amazing learning experience this last year has been. I could get into lots of thoughts, but the one I'm choosing to focus on right now is that when I'm not accountable, I don't win.

I haven't been writing in a year, and in that year I've now put back on 40 lbs. Forty.

HOLY SHIT.

So it's time to get back to work. Lifting and posting. Maybe everyday.

Here we go.

290.2